Okay, normally I’m all for not posting your emotions on the Internet, but maybe someone will actually read this and give me some advice. 

So I’ve been dating the same guy for almost three years. We both go to school a little over 2 hours away from each other, but its been like this for about two years now. But here’s my beef. He never talks to me, i shouldn’t say never. Let’s just say, what the typical couple texts all day, or at least has a pretty long conversation everyday. Well let me just say, I’m lucky if I get a “Hey, what’s up” from him. So I started doing this thing where I won’t text him if he hasn’t started a conversation in a while. So he hasn’t actually started a conversation since Friday, and I have to say it wasn’t even a conversation it was “Sup-going to class you-studying-oh thats fun, its so nice out here how about there?-yeah its warm.” done. like wtf? how come the only time him and i have an actual conversation when i am under an influence? Sometimes I try not to say anything, but oh god, I just can’t do it. Madly in love with him. But for the love of god, like what do i do? Just let it go. I try to bring it up to him and he just says “I’m sorry, I know I’m not being a very good boyfriend and you don’t deserve it I’m just really busy.” I get that you go to a really tough school for a really tough major but like, you don’t even have enough time to talk to someone who’s pretty important in your life? His family told me that whenever they text him they get an immediate response but how come when i text him I have to wait for hours? Idk, i just don’t think it’s fair. And the thing that bugs me is I’m afraid to confront him about this because he broke up with me last time, and it wasn’t because i confronted him, he just said he couldn’t handle the long distance relationship. Sometimes I just cry myself to sleep because I know that I have a totally different relationship than other people. But when I say different, I mean it two different ways. There is this way, that I absolutely hate, and theres the other way which i love so much, it’s why I can never let him go. It’s so unique and it’s awesome. We are nerds and we love pretty much the same things and we tickle and wrestle each other and we have a pretty playfully violent relationship, and i love it. His family too is amazing. There’s so many good things that weigh out this one bad thing. But some people would say that while we are in school, which is most of the year, this isn’t worth it but he is. I just want to talk to him, I miss and love him too much to not talk to him everyday. 

“When I text you, it’s because I miss you. When I don’t text you, it’s because I’m waiting for you to miss me” -Something I Read on Twitter

So I have this one professor for Earth Science, let’s just put this in plain terms, he’s a dick. He sits up there and just tells us these stupid stories about how he’s a geologist and he travels all over the state to do some geological shit that i really don’t care about. I know I’m supposed to take classes like this cause, i don’t fucking know, maybe when I’m an SLP i’ll just randomly start being like “classify this igneous rock” and if they get it wrong they fall to their fiery death in a bottomless pit in Hell. But here’s my beef with professors. First of all, if you are gonna give us a study guide for an exam, AT LEAST PUT THE DAMN MATERIAL FROM THE STUDY GUIDE ON THE EXAM. and second of all.. the test is about earth science, i don’t wanna see shit on there that have nothing to do with it. I’m serious like, the study guide is like “what is a rock: what is a mineral: what is a glacier” and shit like that.. so don’t ask questions like “Johnny has four apples and gives three too Mary. Calculate the sun’s mass”. Like come on bro, throw me a bone here. Then I got this other professor.. he’s new to this teaching college student thing, and you can totally tell. He has no idea what’s on our midterm. Like come on now.. JUST TELL US WHAT’S ON IT. Fuck, I can’t stop burping… just a random fact i thought you should know… So he’s like, oh just study everything. Bitch please, you have me doing a paper for your class and studying.. i got other shit too do, I don’t got all day to just study for your class. okay, I’m pretty sure most of my blogs are gonna be me bitching. But that’s cool. Maybe next week I won’t bitch, I’ll be home. OMG HOW EXCITING. awesome. okay. I’m gonna go watch GSN, my new favorite thing. Do I have an 8am tomorrow? yep. Am I going? nope. its EARTH SCIENCE. shitdick. 

Alright, so I’m new to this Tumblr thing. So i really don’t know what I’ll blog about. Maybe I’ll just put pictures and quotes that I like. I probably look super conceited because I just posted two pictures of myself on here, of course that’s the first thing I did. But hey, I’m in love with my hair and when I take a good picture, I will cherish it. 

So let me tell you a little about myself. I’m Jackie. I’m a college student studying Speech Language Pathology. I work at Dairy Queen when I’m actually home and I live everyday like it’s my last and I’m pretty straight up with people. But that’s all you really have to know about me for now. 

Alright, now that I don’t even know what to write anymore and I’m just basically dicking around before my class starts, I guess I’ll try to figure this thing out. Holy crap my first blog! How exciting. Maybe I’ll do some more. Alright. Bye.